Here it is. One year has gone by. It's a snowy morning. This is spring. Even if mother nature is not ready yet. A milky white sky so serene, so peaceful. Quiet. Quiet like the start of day. A practice I've put in place about six months ago: beginning my day in silence, being aware... Continue Reading →
What woman dives into a relationship with a man immediately after he drops his fiancé in a snap, and rips her away from his kids that have been in her life for four years? What does it take to look deep into someone's eyes and be hypnotized by the stories they tell: the reasons he... Continue Reading →
A few days ago, I got a flash back of the day leading up to the very end - of the relationship with my ex-fiancé. I had seldom thought about that part on repeat. As opposed to the other minutes I rode into the decision to try and take my life. Those I recall in... Continue Reading →
Vulnerability. Low confidence. Weak self-esteem. How do we get there? What forces, experiences, and stories have we taken in - processed with tailor-made interpretations and a conclusion that we are less than....not worth...undeserving of...not up to...not not not...? Do you ever feel in your gut that something is off, but it's easier to ignore than... Continue Reading →
The shortest month of the year is just about over. When you’ve been thrown away and flicked aside without a lick of care by the person you were spending your life with – “getting over it” is not a simple template to follow. There isn’t a period of standard sadness that it’s over. You don’t... Continue Reading →
You wanted to believe they were for real. He reached me. He got through a hard-to-access covert pathway that I don’t even have the directions to. From there, how could I ever let him go? They told you that they had never met anyone like you. They said you were special. I was special. This... Continue Reading →
I haven't been ready to complete this post, and I didn't realize that it would be my final post of this year 2017 - the year that began with such excitement and possibility; the feeling that something big will happen. 2017 emerged with fierce hope and energy. A few weeks into January, I was among... Continue Reading →
I chose to share myself and this road that I've walked since my life shifted so dramatically eight months ago by the narcissist I thought I knew and loved. The time has passed at all speeds. It hasn't been easy. It hasn't seemed like I was going to be in a better place. I'm still... Continue Reading →
We've moved into a new realm in the era of speaking up. I fear that soon the weight of another story about unwanted sexual advances or harassment will not be so heavy at all. Similar to the way we, in America, have become less shocked to hear of another shooting. Will nothing ever be sacred... Continue Reading →
It won't always be like this - right? I can't be carrying on about the man I thought loved me who turned out to be a narcissist for the rest of my days, can I? It certainly seems as if I have a lot to say about it. Again, it's only been seven months. 213... Continue Reading →
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