Being the Problem

You wanted to believe they were for real.  He reached me. He got through a hard-to-access covert pathway that I don’t even have the directions to. From there, how could I ever let him go? They told you that they had never met anyone like you. They said you were special.  I was special. This... Continue Reading →

Laser Beam Love

“You make my breath catch,” he used to say all the time. He proudly retold the story of our first date in Cambridge, when he saw me walking before I noticed him. I was much more beautiful than my profile pictures he said over dinner at the no frills Thai place. He had a warmth... Continue Reading →

A Green New Thing

I haven't been ready to complete this post, and I didn't realize that it would be my final post of this year 2017 - the year that began with such excitement and possibility; the feeling that something big will happen. 2017 emerged with fierce hope and energy.  A few weeks into January, I was among... Continue Reading →

The Warrior

I chose to share myself and this road that I've walked since my life shifted so dramatically eight months ago by the narcissist I thought I knew and loved. The time has passed at all speeds. It hasn't been easy. It hasn't seemed like I was going to be in a better place. I'm still... Continue Reading →

Don’t F With Our Energy

We've moved into a new realm in the era of speaking up. I fear that soon the weight of another story about unwanted sexual advances or harassment will not be so heavy at all. Similar to the way we, in America, have become less shocked to hear of another shooting. Will nothing ever be sacred... Continue Reading →

The Gift

It won't always be like this - right? I can't be carrying on about the man I thought loved me who turned out to be a narcissist for the rest of my days, can I? It certainly seems as if I have a lot to say about it. Again, it's only been seven months.  213... Continue Reading →

It Actually Happened

In the wake of so many women speaking up: their courage, the important attention on sexual harassment and the fact that women have suffered predominantly in private for so long, I feel more empowered to speak up. I wish I could share everything about being manipulated by a narcissist - and still seem like the... Continue Reading →

Yes, MeToo

I did not participate in the #MeToo posts on social media. I could have, maybe should have, but I couldn’t wrap my head around sharing a blip of info in the context of something so huge and scandalous. This would have been the first time I shared anything publicly, and there was a lot to... Continue Reading →

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